my first time job ==

i want to laugh at myself whenever i look into the mirror...

LOL...my eyebrows look so funny!!! i did this myself...==''' 

What a lousy job i did!!can you see the 'holes' at the center of. them?? LOL...i do not dare to continue... if not i will become a girl with no eyebrow tomorow...LOL... 

and my eyes are really really very very small...haha...

OMG..how long does it takes for my eyebrow to grow back?? 

how am I going to face people? 

by the way.. colloge starts next week... kind of excited for it...

Oh.. shall I invest some public bank funds?? since the interest rate for bank saving account is quite low..==

blehblehblabla

My holiday sucks like hell. Well, I have never been to there thou, but I knew its not better than that. I find it so hard for me to fall asleep. I cannot sleep well and tight. I can sleep from 10.30pm but wake up at 3.00am with some nightmares. OMG...I have forgotten the taste of having a nice sleep. I missed the time when I will sleep everyday in the classroom. Yeah, maybe you would find me 'not sleeping' only when I was attending Ms Rashidah class. (Oh, forgive me if the post sounds weird, I have forgotten what I wrote just now as I ter'deleted' it ^$#@#%). Oh yeah, my memory is getting worst now. I think my brain is not functioning. I tend to forget things faster and more than before. OMG, is this the side effect of not sleeping well??

I am not nagging at here. But waking up everyday at don't no what time, realising the fact that everyone around me is having their exams, it really makes me want to 'fly away' now. I should have planned my holiday with me alone backpacking at other countries!!! I don't care there is any don't what flu. I am pissed off now. 

The wind outside is blowing like it wants to blow off my roof. The sound is quite scary now, especially at this middle of night when I am alone in the living room. And there are some things falling down from upstair. But my dad came down to ask me what is that and he went to the back to check. =='''

'In the end it doesn't matters how many breath you took, it is how many matters that took your breath away..' it is cited from darius's blog, I think he paraphrased from somewhere else, if I am not wronged. Yeah, it makes sense right? I feel that my life is quite meaningless now. Its not meaningful in the sense that I have nothing except my bored college life. I have been questioning myself during the holiday, 'is this the life that I want?' 'is it ok if i just pretend like nothing happened and continue?' and now, I still do not get the answer. Change or don't? Of course I want a change, but where? and what? 

Some people around me had left this world. It really bangs me when I think 'what if i am the next person?', who knows what will happen to me the next hour. I am not being negative. Maybe I will say ' is this all?' before the moment i left this world. I really do not want my life ends like this. I definitely NEED a change.

Bravo~ MUSIC MAN!!!

BRAVO~ Lee Hom Music Man!!!! I enjoyed the concert, my friend was soo touched until she cried when he sang "落叶归根", a song inspired by the movie of Ang Lee. Oh, his performance was fabulous, especially when he played the violin, piano and drum set. OMG, he is so talented!!Anyone will fall in love with him when you see the way he played the instruments!!!  Of course, he brought his Bahamut(his electric guitar) and performed to us too. Until today I just realised that he can dance.Too bad i couldn't take any pictures or photo as there were so many 'guardians' there. Yeah, the concert worths that price~ Daniel and a superstar girl( too bad, I forgotten her name) were his special guests of the night. And he sang birthday song~~~

One of the section of the stadium. There were 25000 ++ people there...@@

Does it looka like coral reef in the sea?? Actually its the audience!!!!

The only one picture that I managed to get ^^

My seat was quite far from the stage, I think. I will definitely get a VVIP seat for his next concert!!!

~the 19th~

I woke up 1 pm in the afternoon, realising that I had passed my birthday eve without any surprise or celebration ($%@%@), but with 'Rising Family' (a korean tv show). Sigh, so i went to KLCC to meet up with my bro n his fiancee for lunch since I am alone in the hostel. How sad can it be!!! We had a ## Neapolitan pizza and ## spaghetti and Two in One Soup (ha, this one I remember) at California Pizza Kitchen . They were quite nice, at least they are better than pizza hut, I think. Then, I accompanied them to the Home Fair. We soaked inside there for more than 5 hours, my god @@. My bro bought a LCD, water heater, and so many more. LOL, I can call him 'auntie' as he just bargained like a auntie in the pasar. Then we go for dinner at some Indian restaurant which serves yummy yummy spicy north indian food in Bangsar. The dishes I had are spicy and I like it!! When I thought I was going to end my 19th birthday without a cake, you know what, my beloved friends gave me a surprise after I came back. Luckily I haven't change my clothes. Ooo, guys, thanks for the surprise thing. It was soo touching..haha^^  Here are some pictures taken in the Indian restaurant and my surprise birthday celebration!!!!

Ooo..I like the design....

My bro n his fiancee...haha...I look like him, don't I??

They gave us some 'keropok' before the dishes,spicy, but I like it!!!

Ayam tandoori, Spicy curry, and Naan.

~My 19th birthday cake~

My 'bodyguards'...LOL

It was a fantastic day, although I am so tired as I haven't gain my energy back from the hell exam. And I can't wait for my MUSIC-MAN concert, oh, I think I am going to shout and shout with lee hom ^^