最近的我，活得很自在，虽然我失去很多。

这段时间，虽然很挫折，教训了我一点，也让我重新认识自己。

我发现，我真的很喜欢交朋友，这让我很有满足感。

我发现，原来每个人都是个个体，都有值得我学习的地方。

我发现，我不能太安逸，会让我很散漫，也让我迷失方向。

我发现，原来幸运不是常有的，也许，以前我就把我的库达用完了。

我发现，原来我最怕家人对我失望。。。

某一个领域，我真的不能碰，因为它是潘多拉的盒子。。。

我不相信命运，但我相信因果。

2010

Since i went to college, i realized that time really flies.

Two years before, i was still a fresh foundation student.

Now, i am a second year degree student already.

A lot of things had happened during these few years,

some are as usual,

some are not in my own zone.

Through the years, i thought i was growing mature.

Yet, i am not.

I have spent too little time or have to say no time for self refection before i slept.

Its been too long that i forgot to remind myself for not repeating the mistakes i have done everyday.

Maybe i have been too relaxing in a comfort zone for a very long time,

and i have all the excuses for everything i done,

its time for me to leave that zone,

and get myself being attentive to everything i am going to do from this moment.

This is a post i used to remind myself,

after looking at so many examples,

i realized that life is not easy,

though I thought its hard before,

but now i think that its harder than i thought.

Enjoying every moment seems to be the hardest among all.

And i am bored of my attitude now.

Its time for me to change change change!!!!

心情语录

最近啊，每每都会听到身边的人都有大病小病的，尤其是癌症。虽然是发生在自己的亲戚身上，可老实说，我却异常地冷静。就好像那时候婆婆还有外公往西时，意外地，我并没有号啕大哭。就连小时候疼爱我的外公也是，挺让我惊讶。有人说过我表现得过于冷血，我也听听作罢。也许我已经做好心理准备了吧。我也只是觉得生死是一个人生的开始和结束，如果没有太大的遗憾，我想那个人生就很不错了吧。

今天下午刚刚捐完血，唉！早知道就坚持捐在左手，害我的右手现在的针孔处又是黑青又是肿胀的，还蛮心疼的。今天学校另一处有一个填器官捐赠处表格的地方。好可惜，我捐血完后，忘了填，希望下次还有机会。这让我想起，很多年以前，我告诉我妈妈，“如果哪一天我发生什么意外的话，记得要把我能捐的就捐出去”。可是啊，也许老一辈的人比较避忌吧！在我还没说完前就一句touchwood!!! 那么多年了，我还是觉得反正生不带来，死不带去，与其让它们被烧掉，不如让它们继续留在这世上吧。看到那些每次为了活下去而挣扎的病人，我真的觉得器官捐赠完全能扭转它们的人生。我们活在这世上，健健康康地，死后，也该让别人也幸福一次吧。

很喜欢写心情语录，因为能保留着我现在的思维。每次读回以前的文章时，就会记得原来那时的我是那样的。很不错一下！！很可惜我不常把值得纪念的日子放上去，因为我太懒了。可是现在如果有人问我去年发生了什么，我想我应该答不出几个吧。看到身边的人因为病魔而离去，我也会觉得人生喜怒无常，我们谁都不能预料会发生什么事。我越来越觉得，只要此刻活得精彩，明天或昨天已不怎么重要了。要珍惜和把握现在吧！！！

心情语录

这个又不知道是第几个半夜睡不着所写的语录了。最近较喜欢用华语，感觉华语越来越差。华人始终不能放弃自己的语言吧。我的福建话已经不行了，绝不能让华语也沦陷了。哈哈。（用龟速打的，汉语拼音不好）回首2009，我好像没有跟着我想要的去做。越来越觉得我的人生少了点什么。到底是什么呢？

写不下去了。。

花木兰

刚刚看完了这出由赵薇主演的，

说实在的，觉得近几年华人影片都发展得不错，

比起欧美电影，的确有自己的味道。

与其说花木兰是历史教材，倒不如说是社会教材了。

从孝顺父母，尊师重道到男女平等等，它都有了。

电影的沙场处理还不错，比起满城尽带黄金甲那种华丽，它更具真实性。

赵薇那种刚中带柔的语气，挺喜欢的。

陈坤所饰演的角色，又帅又深情，只是后面才说是皇子身份吓倒我一下。

影片结尾时男女主角不能一起，挺辛酸的。

为了国家，舍弃了一生的挚爱。哇，心里一个洞了。

可我记得卡通的是有圆满结局的啊。。

值得推荐的一部影片，难怪赵薇身价会涨了，哈哈，不错不错。

第一次

this new year eve was a little bit different for me

i used to celebrate with another group of friends

this time i chose to capture the moment with my beloved band members

wow~~ we had a wonderful night

so unlucky that i got a SAMAN when i bought a cake for shu yan n sin hwee

aiks...there was no parking place there~~

it makes my new year eve seems a little bit not perfect

so sad~

anyway, still i hope that all the bad luck will goes away from me!!!

HAPPY 2010 everyone !!!!

and

here comes the photos!!!!

happy birthday in advance to both

JAN babies~~

dedicated to Mary, my little sis who took the group photos for us

our group photo without the musical instruments!!

gong xi gong xi for the 2010~

me liza being lizard??

kai cing n sin hwee

being an emotional couple!! haha

then we headed to Tanjung and camwhore beside a lamp post...

me trying to be a fake doll...

do i look real??

han wee, shu yan n kaicing

kai cing n me~

blowing bubble session @ Tanjung

last but not least HAPPY BIRTHDAY to KAI LU

sorry for not being able to celebrate with you~

命运是掌握在自己手里的